The Awakened Twin Flame Soul: Void and Shadows of Self Part 2 by Master Lady Diamond Jennifer Lucas 12/17/2017
This is the continuation of my previous article which I attempted to explain how I have reached The Abyss of my core for more Self Mastery. As I have stated previously, before I begin my writings, I call in my Almighty I AM Presence to speak from intuition (LOVE), to transmit understanding (WISDOM), and to stand in Christ Consciousness (POWER). This is known as The Three-fold Flame. Through Embodiment of these three main Flames of Source, integration of my Sovereign Template, has begun.
I have known for many years now, that I am Ascending into Higher Dimensional states of Being. With the love and light of MotherFather God, I am able and well endowed to emit my own illuminated Soul for everyone to see. There is nothing I am afraid to show. Nothing at all! In fact, I AM going to put my Self on blast and call Me out on all this shit!!! Are We Ready?! I AM! Me too! Shadow Self, runs and tries to hide.
Me: Where the FUCK, you think you’re running off to?
Shadow Self: I don’t know. I cant stand being in The Spotlight.
As I see her crouching down so neglectfully facing the corner in shame, I went to her. I knelt down and placed my hand upon her shoulder.
Me: Don’t you want to reveal your best potentials? Don’t you want to show the world who you truly are? Don’t you know that you are the creator of all you think, say, and do? You know all these things, yet you haven’t grasp it’s understanding.
Shadow Self: Yes, I want to do all these things, but I don’t know how to begin. I been hiding in Shadow for so long, I have forgotten what it feels like to be seen.
Me: All you have to do is know that I AM HERE. You are not alone in this dark place. Love is always with you and will warm that cold, hard, neglected, abused, rejected, abandoned heart of yours.
Shadow Self: You Are really here for Me?
Me: Yes, I AM!
As my I AM is embracing my Shadow, I am able to retrieve every hidden secret, forbidden emotions, forgotten memories of then and even now, The Repressed Sexual Beast, and every Soul Wound of Past and Present. I understand why I made it here this far into my Abyss. I also know after I’m healed inside this Abyss, Illumination and Divine Balance will come. I know that this will Infuse me into an Equilibrium State of Being. So, until I AM completely opened up like a can of sardines, (I HATE sardines), I’m going to where I have never gone before.
My journey of Awakening is so bitter-sweet, I can taste every tingle and tang of my soul nourishment that feeds me all the sweet delishesness as well as the putrid sourness of life’s experiences. I have witnessed my Self through these years change into forms of Me I never knew I was capable of. I have come to identify with the things I discovered I was, AM, and always will be, ME.
I AM a true bonified Twin Flame going through each of these stages of Self Realizations and Acknowledgements, which opens my Sovereign Template, bringing back to my Soul’s Original Authenticity. I had to climb a extremely high mountain to reach my Light. Now, I must dive extremely deep to reach my Dark. My Higher Self has shown Me that I can go anywhere and do anything. There is no limit to what I AM capable of. I AM constantly reminds Me of that. This is why I know I can go to this place and be cradled inside the Love of Source.
Almighty I AM Presence of Violet Flame, descend over and into me now, as I travel into where I am being guided now. As I’m taken down, I feel the denseness begin to enclose in on me. A pressure from within. That familiar sense of heaviness in my field. I stand in here knowing that I AM protected ready to face every Filthy Ugly Monstrous Shadow I have, that has tortured and haunted my Soul for eons.
Inside the very deep midnight purple Darkness of Void, I AM shown The Mirror of Reflection. It begins showing Me every face I have ever been, that has never seen the Light of my days, EVER! I heard the song, The Sound of Silence from Disturbed as he sings, Hello Darkness my ol’ friend! I’ve come to talk with you again! The Voices of Me I never heard, for they have been repressed for eons of lifetimes.The Veil of Illusion begins to fall away from Me, as I AM review an explosion of images from The Mirror of Reflection.
The Games I had played. I see life’s of me who had played the part of lair, hater, manipulator, con, traitor, victimizer, raper, killer, ect. Viewing every fucked up thing that I have done to others. How many fucked up times was I these things? Who the fuck was there to save you from me? Who was the one to come and put me in my fucking place? How could I ever agree to be these things and why would I ever choose to have such a terrible fucking experience? Where was The Guiding Light of God then to over shine me, just to let me know, that I was not alone? It really was during times of Evil. Did I not have a heart? Where was my Love?
My Soul weeps.
The Hell I had to pay back to The Wheel of Karma. Did I create all this hell? Well, hell yeah. I know I did. I created hell here on earth. Yep, It was Me, who chose to be here with all of you to co-create everything WE ARE NOT. We all live in every Hell we create. I’m told, we don’t need to be This Hell anymore. We are at End Times Prophecy where everything changes into New Earth and New Heaven. I know now, why I AM here and why I was being all those things of Hell. I know now, how all of this is just to play, The Game of Experience.
The Anger carried through every incarnation, is now screaming at Me to acknowledge her, so I can give her the Understanding and Compassion she has yearned for, through all her lives.
The Trauma stored within her body and psyche, is in so much turmoil and pain. Every Opened wound is spewing an ocean of blood, awaiting to be mended and healed with Tenderness and Care. I now Realize and Acknowledge, that it was Me, who did all this to my Self.
I AM Sorry. Please Forgive Me. I Love You. Thank You.
Through Love, I healed The Wounds of Past and Present.
The Repressed Sexual Beast. It is chained up, tied down, and violently raging inside a beaten, filthy, nasty, dirty, naughty, twisted cage called Repression. In here, there is no damsel-in-distress. No one who has a key to unlock it. No one to reach in a hand to soothe it. No one to release the Beast in this cage here, but Me.
Finally, I walk through The Mirror of Reflection as I AM facing the most beautiful terrifying aspect of my Shadow Self. The Truth. Will I reveal to you everything I have kept secret and hidden inside this cage? Will I tell you that I AM The Beast? You better Fucking know it! I AM in Love with Me so much, that I AM ready to open wide up and release her NOW. I have never set her free. I don’t know how she will react or respond. Everything about her, is right here. Opened, Exposed, and Transparent. Freed from the Bondage of The Abyss, I AM RESURRECTED! I AM Reborn from the Sacred Eternal Love of The Void. When I come out of The Void, I know I will be as I never was before. I am ready to be everything to my self and all others. I will shine this Diamond Heart as Magnificently and brilliantly as I can muster. I will guide you through The Void where absolutely nothing matters in Love and everything else is Illuminated in Light.
So, inside The Void I become the greatest version of Me as a Master of The Universe, I become The Greatest Superhero and save my Self. To Complete Me within everything I AM and Always Will Be.
I leave you now with my Anthem. Hero of The Day by Metallica!
I love each and every one of you just as you are.
A Diamond in The Dark. Keep Shining!
Master Lady Diamond